I am quite possibly one of THE clumsiest people on the face of the planet. I run into chairs and walls, stumble over wires and toys, and slam my extremities into doors and small spaces. I attribute my clumsiness to a lack of good depth perception – I think I simply can’t tell how close my body is to another object, therefore… I run into it, fall over it, or shut it in something. I am rarely bruise-, bump-, or burn-free at any given point in time.
I have learned to live with this flaw of mine… my inability to recognize harm when I am facing it. But, today, I did something totally ridiculous and hiarlious all at the same time.
I fell out of a chair. And I have nothing to blame it on except for my own stupidity.
I climbed up in our rolling desk chair to hang a picture (brilliant, I know). As I wheeled myself around (still standing!), I felt myself crashing to the floor – face first. I landed on my nose (a literal “nose-dive”) and just started screaming “I’m okay, I’m okay, I’m okay!!!” as my mom reached out to help me up. I stayed on the ground for a minute or so trying to catch my breath and take in what had just happened. I kept checking my nose to make sure it wasn’t broken, and I really was okay – I just didn’t want to get up quite yet.
It reminded me of Thanksgiving 2005 when Greg and I went with his sister, brothers, Phil, and Rachel to the playground. Some of us were jumping out of swings and I was getting pretty good at it. I decided to do this skate-boarder type trick where I would tuck my legs in and then extend them in order to land on my feet.
I landed on my chest. And as everyone was giggling and sputtering “Are you okay’s” at me, I couldn’t help but just lay on the ground and be still for a moment.
I don’t recommend falling on your face, but it will put a lot of things into perspective for you. The way we carelessly hurl ourselves into harmful situations and then end up… on the ground… face-first… unable and unwilling to move. But, it’s in those moments that we are the most thankful. In those extreme moments of grief, anger, hurt, betrayal, and pain that we are the closest to God.
In our weaknesses, he is made strong.
So, thanks God for letting me fall flat on my face… over and over again. Because it’s only in those moments that I realize how thankful I am… for everything.