I am currently on a date with myself at Panera in Tuscaloosa. I am quite the conversationalist. 🙂 I decided that I haven’t updated in a while, so I’ll do my three favorite types of blogs because I can.
The past few weeks have been intense. I have moved, started school, started over…. all sorts of exciting things. So, I thought I would give a life update for those of you who care but are too lazy to call. 🙂 Just kidding! But seriously, a life update:
Classes: So, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, SO glad I went back! I am enjoying all of my classes thus far and can’t believe I didn’t go back sooner!
Dorm life: Love it/hate it. I hate how small it is, but I love the fact that I can just get up and walk to class!
Roommate: She is awesome!
Work: Being back in the office is weird after working from home for over a year…. but I like it. I have TWO desks…. and lots of office supplies. I have an amazing three hole punch and a sweet Swingline stapler. Work life couldn’t get much better than that!
Cafeteria food: I didn’t go to the caf for the first whole week I was in the dorms, but I finally broke down and went and…. you know what, it just isn’t that bad. It isn’t that great, but it isn’t that bad either.
Rest of my life: Pretty crazy, but pretty good.
I watched some documentaries this past week…. here’s my thoughts:
Jonestown: This was about Jonestown…. obviously. I had heard of the People’s Temple and what happened in Jonestown, Guyana, but I had never heard the whole story. I was shocked…. perplexed, actually. The filmmaker interviewed the three People’s Temple members who were present the day of the suicide but managed to escape and their account of the events was chilling. As one of the survivors put it, the slaughter was just “a waste.”
The Eyes of Tammy Faye: Same as above…. I heard of Tammy Faye Bakker/Messner, but never really knew her story until yesterday. I have heard some interviews that make me question her theology, but overall, the poor girl has been through enough heartache to last a million lifetimes. She was a little loopy, but…. you gotta love her!
I have learned over the past few weeks that when God calls me to do something, I need to just do it. I tend to make all sorts of excuses for running the opposite direction, but that’s when God puts me in the belly of the whale until I learn that I really do want to go to Nineveh…. or school… or in a new direction. I have to remember that His ways are Higher, His thoughts are purer, His plan is better…. If I would just accept it to begin with rather than debating it, life would probably be a lot simpler.
I was talking with somefriends the other night and our conversation confirmed that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. I am where I am supposed to be. I am who I am supposed to be. For now, at least. Something I was reminded of was how I read Bible stories and often think that these people just had it together. Abraham, for instance, as we all know… got to the point that he was willing to sacrifice Isaac on the altar. When we read that story, we know the ending, so we can see Abraham’s actions as being his determination to follow God. But, if we put ourselves in Abraham’s shoes, we have to see that he didn’t know what was going to happen. He only knew that God was telling him do something, so he did it. Sometimes we don’t know what’s going to happen if we go one way or another, but what we DO know is that God is going to protect us. He has a plan for us and He will not forsake us or abandon us. We just have to trust…. and let go.
God cannot possibly surprise me or sustain me more than He already has… it’s hard to imagine that He’ll keep amazing me for the rest of my life. Things always work out…. even when they don’t, they still work out because He knows what we cannot know. He sees what we cannot see.
That’s all, folks!