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Learning to Live Missionally and Mindfully

Though it costs all you have… January 28, 2010

Filed under: 1,jesus,ME,mindful living,spirtual matters — Katie @ 1:38 pm

… get understanding. – Proverbs 4:7

Lately, I’ve been re-reading the book of Proverbs. I don’t really know why… usually, I’m an Old Testament story person. I’d rather read Exodus or Chronicles or about Abraham or Esther than read a collection of random sayings. To be completely honest, I’d rather read the Old Testament than the New. I also really like the Psalms. And I like Hebrews. But, Proverbs??  Proverbs does not have a story, a plot, or a true main character (other than “Wisdom”). It’s in the Old Testament, but that’s just about the only favorable trait I can find. But no matter how out of character it is for me to want to read it, I still read it. And I love it.

I think I love Proverbs because I stink at all the things the book talks about. I stink at “keeping my foot from evil” (4:27), “giving freely” (11:24), providing “a gentle answer” instead of a “harsh word” (15:1), and “seeing danger and taking refuge” (27:12).

If my life had a little more Proverbs in it, it might turn out just a tad bit better.


Saying Goodbye January 21, 2010

I have said “goodbye” far too often over the past few years. When I stop and think about the grief my family and I have endured since 2006, it overwhelms me. Sometimes, out of nowhere, feelings of anger and bitterness rise up because I randomly remember that life is not fair.

On Saturday, I heard about a 25-year-old acquaintance of mine who died in a boating accident. This acquaintance of mine, Matt Miller, was golden. I am not going to elaborate on his life here, but just know that he was the kind of person everyone should have the opportunity to know. I was shocked by his death. Angry, even, that God could somehow think that Matt Miller’s life on earth was complete. Matt’s death reminded me so much of the car accident that took my 18-year-old cousin, Jonathan’s, life in May 2008. I remembered my dad’s quick illness and sudden death in 2006. I remembered all the people I have known who have died in the past three and a half years. There are too many to name.

Then I remembered that just one year ago today, my granddaddy left this earth. I remembered how perfect his last few days were. We were ready to say goodbye. Watching my granddaddy fade from one life to the next was much like watching a ship sail out to sea. We prepared ourselves for his leaving, savored each moment, and took him to a place where he could be set free. And in those very last days, there we were, my family and I, standing at the shore waving our last “goodbye’s” until he had sailed so far away that we could not see him any more.

Saying goodbye is hard. Whether you have the opportunity to bask in a loved one’s final sunset or if someone’s life is ripped from this earth like a tree cleaved from its roots, saying goodbye is hard. It is never easy.

It’s not supposed to be.


Back in the Saddle. January 17, 2010

Filed under: 1 — Katie @ 11:32 pm

Now that the new year has begun, I’m back on the worship team. My time with the preschoolers has ended and I’m back to singing and leading and doing the things I love most. Don’t get me wrong – I think it’s pretty clear I love kids. I mean, my whole degree is based on the education of young children. But, when it comes to church, worship is my passion. And it’s not just music.

Worship is part of our everyday lives, of course, but corporate worship is where I find rejuvenation and a breath of fresh air. Last semester, I had a hard time connecting during worship and spent a lot of time finding alternative ways to worship (writing, praying, etc. instead of singing). But the past few services have led me straight to the Throne.

I love worshiping the Lord. I really, really do. I love coming together as a community, singing His praises, and pouring ourselves out to Him. There is just something really precious about being able to do that. Vineyard is such a wonderful place to participate in worship. Today was particularly great…. or, at least I thought it was.

I love singing, of course. But I also love not singing. Sometimes, I just stop singing, stand back, and listen to God’s people sing to Him. It’s absolutely beautiful. This morning, Jon let me lead the Apostle’s Creed. I grew up reciting the Apostle’s Creed every Sunday and it’s a tradition that I really miss. A few Sundays ago, I actually skipped the message portion of our service to go to the Presbyterian Church, where they say the Creed. I told Jon about this the other day and he actually wanted to do the Creed at Vineyard! If only I had known sooner! It’s definitely not something we’re going to do every week, but… it’s just nice to hear the body of Christ proclaiming our beliefs and standing firm as one community.

Now I’m just rambling, but…. I just wanted to remember this day.

It was a beautiful morning… a beautiful service… and a beautiful way to start off the week.


Poor QBs. January 12, 2010

Filed under: 1 — Katie @ 4:46 pm

Dear Colt,

I told you they hit hard.



Dear Tim,

I took your advice and quit before they made me cry on national TV.




I’m sorry, I couldn’t help myself.


“WE DID!” January 8, 2010

Filed under: 1,fun times,ME — Katie @ 3:48 pm

Yesterday, I had some doubts. Just like I had doubts about beating Tennessee, beating Auburn, winning the SEC championship, Ingram winning the Heisman… I had a lot of doubts this whole season. Not to say that I didn’t think our team could do it, but I was trying to be cautiously optimistic.

And that, my friends, must be the sign that we’re about to do something extraordinary.

Last night’s game was incredible. The first few minutes were terrifying. I think we were all holding our breath, hoping that the boys’ sloppy plays were indicators of nervous jitters rather than an upcoming poor performance. Then the unthinkable happened. Texas’ star QB, Colt McCoy, suffered a shoulder injury early in the game that would keep him out for the duration of the Rose Bowl. We know now that our QB, Greg McElroy, was also playing injured… but a few cracked ribs didn’t stop him.

At first, McCoy’s injury really made me angry. Here we were at the National Championship ready to take down a Texas titan and he wasn’t even able to play. And his replacement wasn’t looking too hot. I didn’t want to win on a technicality because it wouldn’t feel like a true win. But after shaking off his own nervous jitters, Texas’ up-and-coming star QB, Garrett Gilbert, found his groove and brought his boys together to put up one hell of a fight. At one point, it looked like he was about to lead his team to victory. But, they were no match for our onslaught of talent. Texas may have had Gilbert and Shipley, but we had guys like McElroy, Ingram, Richardson, Cody, Arenas, Julio, Johnson, Dareus, and not to mention the entire Tide Nation cheering them on.

What I love, at the end of the day, is that we have a great TEAM. We’re not a one-man show. It’s the entire Alabama Family that makes Alabama football what it is. It’s the coaches, the players, the administration, the students, the alum, the fans, the kids…. it’s a family. No one gets to stand alone here.

And, if Nick Saban knows what’s best for him, he’ll give me a cut of that $400K bonus he received, seeing that my new-found fanaticism is the only explanation for this year’s extraordinary performance.

Get ready… because Bama’s back.


Well. January 7, 2010

Filed under: 1 — Katie @ 9:45 pm

This could be it. This could be the night we (and by “we,” I mean the Crimson Tide) make history. We could be bringing home National Championship #13.

I’ve got to admit, I don’t know what to believe. Apparently Alabama is the favorite coming into this game, which makes me nervous. I don’t know enough about football to make some sort of accurate prediction of who could win (and really, who really knows???). But, I do know this…

I didn’t think we’d beat Auburn.

We did.

I didn’t think we’d beat Florida.

We did.

I didn’t think Ingram would win the Heisman.

He did.

I don’t think we can beat Texas.

And hopefully tomorrow, I can end that statement with, “WE DID.”

No matter what, I just hope the boys play a good game. That’s all I ask. But for now, I’m going to go get ready for some Longhorn steaks (no, really. That’s what we’re serving at my family’s party.) and find every piece of Crimson Tide apparel I have so that I can cheer on the tide!!

Roll Tide!!!